You work hard to be a hurt star/
Then you let it all go but remain the scars/
And I ... can't help but notice/
Alone in my room is where I focus/
I ... don't even like it here/
It's a mixed bag of doubt and fear/
Ups and downs but the ups are gone/
And the downs are up, it's really f**ed/
What do I do? and where do I go?/
I can't pursue what I do not know/
But all I know is I miss it all/
Your summer skin in the midst of fall/
I can't believe you don't want me here/
In my time of need you just disappeared/
We shared a soul, it was in my chest/
Then you ripped it out with my lasting breath/
I never thought I'd persevere, and I never liked to wipe my tears/
And I'd never wanna fight my fears, and I never even liked it here/
I wanted to escape my peers, and I never liked to volunteer/
So watch me disappear, I never even liked it here/
The one bright spot where I tend to dwell/
Is the times we shared in this town of hell/
I never told you but you saved me plenty/
So I wish the best with a heart that's heavy/
f** that and f** you and f** the world and the things I do/
I'm over it, I'm under it, I'm in between like the thunder is/
But I can't give up, won't let up nice/
I fall down once, but I get up twice/
And I look outside and it makes me sad/
I'm trapped inside of this life I had/
I never even liked it here/
I never even liked it here/
I never even liked it here/
I never even liked it here/
Back to Chicago, another damn winter/
Another opportunity where life gets thinner/
And I become a sinner, runnin out like a sprinter/
And every day I think about becoming a quitter/
But I can't do that, gotta pay for the pad/
Gonna do what I can, before I hit that fan/
sh** gets bad and life gets harder/
At least I got a roof and I won't be starving/
I gotta be blessed with the things I have/
In the blink of an eye they can turn to a half/
I can turn to ash from a 10 car crash/
And my life is over like flick flick flash/
But what do I care? layin dead is a grace/
No more pain or anger on this cold bitter face/
And the thought of me leaving you is k**ing me inside/
But the thought of you forgetting me's a pain I can't describe/
I never thought I'd persevere, and I never liked to wipe my tears/
And I'd never wanna fight my fears, and I never even liked it here/
I wanted to escape my peers, and I never liked to volunteer/
So watch me disappear, I never even liked it here/