Johnny Viti - Window Pain lyrics

You work hard to be a hurt star/ Then you let it all go but remain the scars/ And I ... can't help but notice/ Alone in my room is where I focus/ I ... don't even like it here/ It's a mixed bag of doubt and fear/ Ups and downs but the ups are gone/ And the downs are up, it's really f**ed/ What do I do? and where do I go?/ I can't pursue what I do not know/ But all I know is I miss it all/ Your summer skin in the midst of fall/ I can't believe you don't want me here/ In my time of need you just disappeared/ We shared a soul, it was in my chest/ Then you ripped it out with my lasting breath/ I never thought I'd persevere, and I never liked to wipe my tears/ And I'd never wanna fight my fears, and I never even liked it here/ I wanted to escape my peers, and I never liked to volunteer/ So watch me disappear, I never even liked it here/ The one bright spot where I tend to dwell/ Is the times we shared in this town of hell/ I never told you but you saved me plenty/ So I wish the best with a heart that's heavy/ f** that and f** you and f** the world and the things I do/ I'm over it, I'm under it, I'm in between like the thunder is/ But I can't give up, won't let up nice/ I fall down once, but I get up twice/ And I look outside and it makes me sad/ I'm trapped inside of this life I had/ I never even liked it here/ I never even liked it here/ I never even liked it here/ I never even liked it here/ Back to Chicago, another damn winter/ Another opportunity where life gets thinner/ And I become a sinner, runnin out like a sprinter/ And every day I think about becoming a quitter/ But I can't do that, gotta pay for the pad/ Gonna do what I can, before I hit that fan/ sh** gets bad and life gets harder/ At least I got a roof and I won't be starving/ I gotta be blessed with the things I have/ In the blink of an eye they can turn to a half/ I can turn to ash from a 10 car crash/ And my life is over like flick flick flash/ But what do I care? layin dead is a grace/ No more pain or anger on this cold bitter face/ And the thought of me leaving you is k**ing me inside/ But the thought of you forgetting me's a pain I can't describe/ I never thought I'd persevere, and I never liked to wipe my tears/ And I'd never wanna fight my fears, and I never even liked it here/ I wanted to escape my peers, and I never liked to volunteer/ So watch me disappear, I never even liked it here/