[Verse 1]
I'm not f**ing weird
(Yes, you are)
I'm a light skinned kid
With a headache and a depression
Who is trying to get some f**ing attention
(Not, really)
f** that, i ditched rapping about sh**
That i don't even have
And since then I feel like i skipped a couple hundred laps
Ignoring all this bullsh** that's happening around
I'm on my way to success, so f** haters and critics
You f**ers go recycle my lyrics if you don't like em'
I got my mind split of all this sh**
(You should go to sleep, you're not feelng well)
f** sleeping, let me tell my sh**
(No, you won't)
Alright
[Verse 2]
My brain is boiling, like f**ing spaghetti
Food for two, cut in half with a machete
I tried to eat em, but that b**h in my head wouldn't let me
No emotions, just suicidal thoughts in my mind around, lately
(You ain't eating sh**)
Oh, is that so?
Cause i been sparring our f**ing life since six years ago
Remember that first time we was starring at that cutter
sh** got me asking what the f** am i thinking now
(Shut up, stop telling them all of this)
I'm just starting
(You're gonna be sorry about this)
[Verse 3]
See my eyes? well, probably not, but
They been crying all night In a room
Without a single light on
Alone in it, screaming loud inside
What the f** is this life
Ain't no lie man i wanna f**ing die
(You can't)
Mom hearing me, she worried
So she's checking up on me often
Wondering if her little f** is still breathing
Saying: mommy, i'm okay
Don't mind my eyeballs bleeding, it's just nightmares
That are keeping me from sleeping, and she believes me
Cause she don't know how f**ed up, I'm really feeling
(sh**)
[Verse 4]
My father ain't even around, to see the sh** he made
Left mommy, without a single paper
Only the ones that she had to pay
She barely found a way, to keep us warm and safe
I swear if i see you again, I won't even say "Hey"
(f** that dude)
In fact, I'll spit on your face and call you a f*ggot
Cause for five years, you didn't give me a single penny you b**h
Throw a f**ing tissue and leave you thinking about my issues
Biggest lie I'll ever say is: "Oh, daddy, i miss you", f*ggot
(Don't tell that part man)
[Verse 5]
I know that I'm the one and only
Cause, I'm always the one who is f**ing lonely
Sydney loved me, now she turned her back on me
My eyes are soiling, but still
I was the one who said sorry
(Uh)
And it f**ing hurts, just like my f**ing head
Sometimes i wanna go to bed and wake up dead
(No, you don't)
Alright then, I'm just gonna take a nap
And when i wake up, I'll watch a comedy, but won't laugh
I'll just stay there, starring with a mood kinda crappy
Eighteen and i still don't know what the f** is happy
(They are laughing at you, stop this)
(Do you hear me?)
[Verse 6]
My home is a box without a hole
(No)
Day time i keep the windows closed
Cause that f**ing light just pisses me off
Wasted my time writing about gangster life and love
That ain't no sh** for me now, I'm highly above
(Stop playing)
And all the people seem amazed, when i tell em'
That i'm hard to understand, like i'm a motherf**ing maze
They just don't get that my f**ing mood is based
On the things that are just to hard to explain
And there's no f**ing way i'll ever complain about it
(Stop, they don't understand you anyway)
I know that
(But)
[Verse 7]
Do you still think this sh** is funny?
Well here's my laughter, emotions bubbling
While i write down every single chapter
But, f** emotions, cause I have a f**ing dream
And I'll invest all my talent
Just to see me on a motherf**ing TV screen
All you people think I'm bad
But that's just me being truthful
f** your stupid opinions
I store them in a sack and that sack is full of em'
(Stop)
Left that sh** inside the attic
Darker voice inside of me makes you b**hes start to panic
(Seriously)
I'm driving a f**ing UFO, and i don't know if i'm gon' land it
I'm stranded in my head, i wanna wake up.. sh**
(One last time)
Better find someone else to pick you up
Cause i'm a dude who doesn't really give a f**
Get stuck in my forest, hater I'm the bear
(Bye)
f** tender, love and care
I dare you to live, my f**ing nightmares