Okay
On these thoughts all day
Looking down
Holding a frown
With my dog that's cool
Picking the ice out the pool
My mind is bleeding thoughts
Thinking all these fights I've fought
And I pace around thinking deep
What'll go and what will I keep
I'm surprised I've yet to lose sleep
Sorry this first verse is cheap
But I doubt you'll stand under the thoughts I throw up
I'm not sure, my mind decided to blow up
I'm spewing what I'm about to say when they go up
I'm starting to realize
What happens when a kid has real eyes
When I notice real lies
When I see I'm affected no matter the size
The Cries
I'm feeling.....
I'm depressed from my head to my heels like
I'm on the brink of knowing what losing my everything feels like
I'm getting sick in all this drama
I'm afraid of what's going on with my Mama
My items can not compare
Than the human with the Brunet hair
My mama
1 of me but 2pacs
Dear mama
I hope you feel me in these lines and these commas
I'm thinking about this too much
All these depressed lines such
As what I hope God forbids
I can't stand for us to think this as kids
But I pray
I stay
Away
From the worse that could be
Just in case, Mama I love you
My everything to me
Is you
I'm starting to realize
What happens when a kid has real eyes
When I notice real lies
When I see I'm affected no matter the size
The cries
I'm feeling
Like something became nothing
Problems I'm not discussing
I'm scared so my head is always spinning
And It's hard for any forgiving
When your most loved earthly person tells you there losing it
Think of your heart, I apologize for bruising it
I know it's confusing
But If I get back There's no refusing my accusing
I pray God is not approving this conclusion
This stress is introducing illusions
I see things
My life and hers is being ruined by 2 rings
And I'm told I shouldn't be the one to hold her emotions
But to cheer her up I'll swim through the oceans
Need a heart to lean on I'm open
Forget me wen you're down I'm broken
I'm starting to realize
What happens when a kid has real eyes
When I notice real lies
When I see I'm affected no matter the size
The cries
I'm feeling
Like I'm going to hurt someone's feelings with this
Or maybe you'll see feeling in this
Or maybe you'll notice some things are not healing with this
And mama if you're reading
Please don't cry you aren't the reason I'm bleeding
But I pray I'm the reason you're seeing
We need to move to the next phase
I know I've been off for days
And now you know why
Sorry I'm a writer, talk shy
Not a talk guy
I'm working on it
But I'm scared to believe this may happen
All I'll I have left is this rapping
And I know it wouldn't be over, I got God
But earthly it would be done, this might seem odd
I just don't know if I could stain the pain
All these emotional stains
Always feeling like the rain
And saying this I'm not ashamed
I'm starting to realize
What happens when a kid has real eyes
When I notice real lies
When I see I'm affected no matter the size
The cries
I'm feeling
Like mama, there's nothing I can do
But I'll try anything to protect you
I won't lie
To keep you nothing I won't try
Thank God I've had this time at least
But I'm only 13, I need you to keep
I can tell you how many tears blind me as I type
I apologize if this causes too much hype
But I can't stand for this pain
To invade my brain
I'm just praying we evade the comment you made the other day
I can't stand to never again hear you say
Anything ever
Even if you're yelling because you're mad
Losing you when cause more than sad
I can't stand to imagine losing all I've ever had
Cuz if this happens I lose my past
And my future won't last
I hate to think of these things so I'll try to stop
But my happy emotion is starting to drop
Too many people have crossed the line
I don't want nothing bad to happen so I try to spend as much time
When I'm all up under your feet
It's because I wanna be able to keep
As much memory as I can
I hope you understand
I love you