(Verse 1)
How did I get here
With no one to trust?
It was just last year
Perfection felt like us
I spent so long
Trying to find purpose
And I wept too much for
People that care less
And I bet if I left they'd still pretend
That they were still my friend
(And)
(Pre-chorus)
I cried
So hard that night
That a part of me died inside
Now I finally know
To you I was disposable, disposable
(Chorus)
I try hard to let it go
But the memories are so
Embedded in my brain for life
I feel like I'm traumatized
(Verse 2)
I carry you with me
In the night
In my dreams
It's like we never had a fight, but
Then I wake up
Feeling so damn tired
All my energy
It has abandoned me
I never thought
It'd end up like this
With myself
Inside a cloud of emptiness
And while you still
Continue to survive
I'm holding onto sanity
That's barely even alive
(Bridge)
I wish you the best
Even though I am depressed
I still believe in the words that I said
Back in the day, when we were still friends
But don't get it twisted
Don't let my words hit your ears different
I love you till the end
But I still ain't apologizing for sh**
(Chorus x2)