David Sanya - Disposable lyrics

(Verse 1) How did I get here With no one to trust? It was just last year Perfection felt like us I spent so long Trying to find purpose And I wept too much for People that care less And I bet if I left they'd still pretend That they were still my friend (And) (Pre-chorus) I cried So hard that night That a part of me died inside Now I finally know To you I was disposable, disposable (Chorus) I try hard to let it go But the memories are so Embedded in my brain for life I feel like I'm traumatized (Verse 2) I carry you with me In the night In my dreams It's like we never had a fight, but Then I wake up Feeling so damn tired All my energy It has abandoned me I never thought It'd end up like this With myself Inside a cloud of emptiness And while you still Continue to survive I'm holding onto sanity That's barely even alive (Bridge) I wish you the best Even though I am depressed I still believe in the words that I said Back in the day, when we were still friends But don't get it twisted Don't let my words hit your ears different I love you till the end But I still ain't apologizing for sh** (Chorus x2)