XXXTENTACION - THE ONLY TIME I FEEL ALIVE lyrics

Lyrics from the snippet {Chorus: XXXTENTACION} Why the only time I feel alive is when I wanna die? Yeah, tellin' me, "You can be the one," yeah And, honestly, I don't really buy it, yeah Ho, shut up, be quiet, yeah (Yeah) Ho, shut up, be quiet, yeah {Verse: Ski Mask the Slump God} When i'm in that pussy {?}