XVNNIE - Used 2do Drugz lyrics

[verse 1] Uhhh... I used to do d** I still do.. but uhhh.. I used to, too Mitch, I'm just like you, but my drank purp & my weed is blue Blue dream, in touch with the ground I want a flower crown 3 eyes so I'm seeing all around Or is that just Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds dance-dancing on a cloud Trying not to wear my feelings on the sleeves of my sweater, but I get lost in the thought Whenever I'm trying my hardest to heal the pain in my heart Is when I find myself pulling out the blade and cutting in the dark Like lava, I'm flowing, uh I understand. I see. I know it Have you ever cried without knowing? Cause I was just on Tumblr & realized my face was a boat rowing In the ocean, my eyes created, in the open Closing, sending droplets, staining Like juice on the carpets Ugh I ain't really into all that, I don't know what this is I miss you right now, I miss when I was your misses I miss when you used to listen But now I'm in love with the pills in my system And I always hope & pray that I don't awake And when I do, I end up being pissed all day I always talk to my friends in case I disappear Cause I know for sure one day I won't be here Cause sometimes I look at the scars and they saying "make more." But my head is saying "don't do it, baby, look forward!" And you could poptart, you could popcorn But I'll pop pills, bet it's more than four Bet you say I'll die if I take anymore But I could come home & throw up Cough out some blood, drop weight & still be able to show up the next day When they ask me if I'm fine And I'm like, "yeah, I'm alright." I hate how they can see it my eyes They can hear it in my voice They can tell they are some lies But they know it was my choice Yo I hate being sad, I hate being lonely I got a few close friends, the others don't know me My hair may be pink, but my life is black & white, snowy, I guess I'm Dopey And I'm tired all the time But blood on a white blanket Is pretty, Lord, what am I thinking? Why do I do this to myself when I know I can't sleep in Hating when the tears stream so I can't even see sh** But the lines form so perfect, Jesus And uhh I made this rap from the stuff in my Twitter drafts But you know I.. Uhhh... I used to do d** I still do.. but uhhh.. I used to, too