Tim Goddard - February 9th lyrics

It's February 9th Crazy I'm 21 tonight Think I'm Still to young to be Looking back on Life If there's time to reminisce tonight the right night So thank you to Tim because this beat is really tight Don't get me wrong I'm going to have fun I've got so much vodka, going to be sloppy drunk Got enough that everyone can have some Before that happens I'm thinking about stuff I thinking bout my mum Because I miss her Yea I miss her And I'm missing my sister Because recently she seems to be wanting going with her Likes she's frustrated with me cause I'm dealing with it better Maybe she just wants us to deal with it together It's just over complicated by brains like whatever But there's no right way to deal with grief Does she not see I need to look after me Things growing inside of me like a cancerous Disease All under lock and key so I don't worry my family But I can let it free in this note that I've wrote Damned them if I do, damn myself if I don't But I'd rather hold the load I know others that won't Though I've got this sinking feeling I'm just trying to stay a float But I can unload on my phone, When I'm in my room alone Write another song so that I can get along Because with each line, my mind starts to unwind Deal with it myself, to keep my mental health So maybe she doesn't have this form of expression Which I learn early from all my art lessons There can't be much freedom for her, writing another essay But I don't know, I'm just speculating So my father tries to help but he just can't connect And I think my sister mistakes this for neglect Then a few years go by filled with regret Yet they're both so stubborn they won't let themselves forget Yet they've both got selective memory So remember the same things differently Yet I wasn't they're so I cannot see Who telling the truth and who's exaggerating But I don't know anyone who always get on with their family As long as they're there at the end of everything So even if these words to helping I thought they might be worth mentioning Yea Thank you for today though And don't think I'm not greatfull for all the presents Just its one thing that's been on my mind recently Sorry if it's not my place to say But I think I'm in a position better than most too be able to Thank you Tim for the beat And helping me start my journey into this art form You're my homie dawg haha And thank you everyone for the birthday messages They're really appreciated I hope you know that I just had to get some thoughts i had to get off my mind