Tim Barry - (Memento Mori) lyrics

It happens nearly every night I walk circles to find my feet and challenge expectations made of me It's all brown and red and white and green Those memories in the head replayed explode in colors perfectly I come home when I feel ready Throw my sweatshirt on the back of the chair And sit until the breathing comes in shallow and slow I make circles with the stars Cause sitting seems so senseless it's the sitting That makes me stagnant it makes me sick I won't apologize for all my lives And I expect no one to stand by them Don't ask what I do I'll say no more than you But not as much as I want and far more than I can prove Dawns best spent on mainlines Paralleling rivers strong with breeze I can't catch but I retain Are transitions made with ease for you When you wake up and don't know where you are Can you laugh and take the moment as your own Why keep trying to belong Why make commitments with people who tomorrow won't remember your name Or your face or all you are I always rise up with the dawn Cause morning means I've beat d**h and I'll k** the day alone Or with those I love and that's all I won't apologize for all my lives And I expect no one to stand by them Don't ask what I do I'll say no more than you Not as much as I want and far more than I can prove Do you remember mistakes made Do you really feel joy and pain or are you content now to simply sit there numb I know I can't stop the ticking But I won't let time defeat me or take my ambitions or goals Or rob me of all my wants and all I've done All dressed as what you hate Just waiting around to wait wondering exactly What is meant or why it is too much bare f** that challenge what you've made Leave nothing undone or unsaid beat the day remember your d**h I won't apologize for all my lives And I expect no one to stand by them Don't ask what I do I'll say no more than you Not as much as I want and far more than I can prove