The Teenage Runaways - Old Habits Die Hard lyrics

I turn away and close my heart for the chance of love luring me into the darkness I am not heartless For the past has just taught to not be caught in love since it is definitely not worth pursuing Even though you are extremely alluring and you've got my stomach churning A relationship is something I am not yearning for I'm simply searching for someone to just adore Love is not the cure it is a poison I thought I was buoyant but right now I am drowning The water is surrounding My heart is pounding I am counting the seconds of how long I can hold my breath I am welcoming d**h since it is the only thing left to come into my life I am the clouds to your sky It hurts so bad to say goodbye Why must I cry when I am not the victim I am a sickness and you are my symptom You are the smart one, you hold all the wisdom You are gypsum and I'm quartz You are delicate and I'm coarse I don't mean to be short But by force we're gonna have to break apart at the source I can no longer endorse your muffled cries for help I'm just gonna have to put us up on the shelf The pain I've substained due to my own weight of my ball and chain is a shame I no longer wanna play my own game You win and I lose I'm beating myself up you can openly view the bruises I'm black and blue and nobody has any clue why I just wanna die I cannot survive a day further My feelings towards you were so fervor But I hope this news will not be confusing to you I can not continue with misusing you This act of defeat is certainly not an excuse All I was trying to do was diffuse the abuse of both of our brains but I know the pain still remains You are the smell after the rain You're honestly the blood that's flowing through my f**ing veins But in the event of this ever possibly happening again Abstaining is the best solution The foulness of heart break contributes to the factor of air pollution So don't destroy yourself and don't destroy our planet If you don't ever fall in love, it'll never become a habit