The Spill Canvas - To Chicago lyrics

(Here I go again, h**n) Layin' face down on the sidewalk Here I go again, h**n Layin' face down on the sidewalk Here I go again, h**n Stomach double knotted Dizzy heaving up Dilaudid As my bones turn to chalk But every time I tried to pray The windy city blew my faith away For all my could-haves and my used-to-be's You'd think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs Fever broke the anchor made us lost kites A tether free amphetaMe and you Started sleeping on the train To obliterate the pain When the frost began to bite Every time the morning came I found another me that I could blame For all my could have's and my used to be's (and the darkness inside me) You'd think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs (another hopeless tragedy) For all my should have's and my hope to be's (hoped to be's) I think it's time I found myself some new disease At one point I thought maybe I should warn her But such information is best reserved for our dark corners So I lock the bathroom door and started forgetting my name I annihilated all my pride to usher in my shame For all my could have's and my used to be's (and the darkness inside me) You'd think that I'd have found myself some new beliefs (another hopeless tragedy) For all my should haves and my hoped to be's (hoped to be's) I think it's time I found myself some new disease