The Source - Lost lyrics

[Verse: ALV] Well today I found myself But did I really like him? And then I over thought Thinking am I really like this? Well I guess it's what it is I'm really indecisive Selfish too.. But f** tho, I don't think imma fight it I try to get another bottle cuz I'm bottled and I know that every Little single problem ain't me But every f**ing time I say that imma change it's like the heat Is gone from the AC It ain't me And I lie to myself, but the truth is lately Imma just be really honest I feel the hate already Am I really happy, am I going numb? I really feel empty, the gla** almost done Can't I be content with a single outcome I ponder to much on Life richest albums [Hook: ALV] But even then will I listen? I always ask myself this Every opportunity I get I end up messing up the mission [Chorus: ALV] Well, today I found myself But I'm really lost I don't make sense I don't know where to stop This conundrum is funny I live in a paradox Really it's glummy I hide it and then I confuse it with love Cuz I like when I'm crumbling [Verse: ALV] I love it When I die, I love it Empty inside, I love it Confusing girls, I love it I love trying to fix them Cuz I know when I'm with them I'm really trying to figure them out Cuz I'm trying to figure me out But in the end, I only get hurt Every single time I'm the nice guy Like f** that from now on I'm the bad guy take a few pointers From Vlad I, am s**ing these chicks dry Take advantage of them, like a greedy senpai And I don't care this flow wack I will not take it back I'm a new bound illest on a track & I don't, give a, flying f** I shot you, down like, huntin' ducks Open, season, you can, trust Every, season, is a, must [Hook: ALV] But even then will I listen? I always ask myself this Every opportunity I get I end up messing up the mission... [Chorus: ALV] Well, today I found myself But I'm really lost I don't make sense I don't know where to stop This conundrum is funny I live in a paradox Really it's glummy I hide it and then I confuse it with love Cuz I like when I'm crumbling