The Sleeping - Should Have Let Me Leave lyrics

i've got a body that i don't want to be living in i've got devils flooding up to the neck and i have forgotten how to swim all of these people keep calling me up who i don't even know i don't even know myself it all started when i was a kid i kept putting trust in my father and receiving nothing relationships lasted no longer than limbs still the same, nothing changed this just keeps on happening should have let me leave should have let me leave this mess (i can't stop. i can't stop lying) can i ever come clean? should have let me leave this mess none of this was my fault none of this was my fault still i'm losing sleep