The Sapien - Got Me Weak lyrics

[Intro Sample] Kid 1: If we were lying I don't think we would come up with such good lies Kid 2: If this isn't true, I mean, you can do anything you want with me, but it's true Kid 1: They said that if we told that the Devil would come and k** our parents, and he said that we wouldn't live to be the age nine Kid 2: Molested me Adult: What does that mean, what does "molested" mean? Kid 2: Touching in places we don't want, and then they would like threaten us like, "oh you don't say a word or else we're gonna come into your house and k** everybody, except for you and we're gonna send you to the devil, and everything. And they would scare us really much." [Verse 1: Drtty Pharms] Beta Boys There were months where I couldn't f** without crying Sometime I wonder why I keep trying It ain't safe out there so I stay hiding My mind's so anxious ain't compliant No matter how I try to take my a** back I can't get f**ed without a flash back Fear and desire controlling my mind and I'm wired with pain in my a** crack Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad person f** an underage girl and watch my problems worsen Now I lay in bed with my feelings hurting me and bae cuddling still I feel desertion Perversions have made me alone all these n***as saying I belong in a hole With no way to get out saying I should lose hope they just want me in prison dropping the soap Visions of dope got me tying the rope but I'm trying to cope with the b**hes I broke Longing for something that isn't so transient family f**ed lost my mom as an adolescent b**hes undressing I be confessing my sins to them hoping for blessings Stressing about the consequences I learned that I had herpies the last time I was tested Still I'm f**ing all these b**hes I wish I was different I wish my ex wasn't so distant Still got a hand in every girl that I fistted and I still got mad love for the people I'm missing [Chorus: Ziggy Black] Got me weak, got me weak All the time in a dark I wasted I'm so weak I'm so weak All the pain I refuse to face it Look at me look at me Already lost in the clouds I'm faded This is real this is real I already lost my mind it's too late I already lost my mind it's too late [Verse 2: The Sapien] Sitting in my room listening to DOOM I can' think my mind my mind's blocked by these f**ing goons Wishing I can die very soon but in reality I'm looking for something new Got a text from my old girl nothing new she said I got her a** stuck like some f**ing glue Some dumb similes in the rap sh** I talk about weed on the track I can't f**ing choose But back to these b**hes they talking but I never listen I'm always so distant That's why I'm so alone all the time and these cat in the sea but I'm just fishing and I just dismiss it I really don't give a f** since my mom left the earth I've been giving up Got me waiting for d**h like a sitting duck all of these problems I can't solve this sh**'s enough Don't pity him he's been taught all these lessons but still he's been stressing Don't help that this n***as a city kid cause he want's smith and weston to f** up his blessings Man, got a dime of the kush young moses with a fire crotch diving in the burning bush Standing on the edge of a cliff can't do it by myself all I need's a f**ing push n***a why you wanna die so bad? cause I'm tired of living with my dad And he don't wanna see his son so sad over sh** I could have prevented still dumb as f** Guess I'll never come to my senses [Chorus: Ziggy Black] Got me weak, got me weak All the time in a dark I wasted I'm so weak I'm so weak All the pain I refuse to face it Look at me look at me Already lost in the clouds I'm faded This is real this is real I already lost my mind it's too late I already lost my mind it's too late [Outro] Man it's so hard Man it's so hard, it's so hard, it's so hard Ohhhh