The Natural Profane - My American Gothic lyrics

[Verse 1] Shallow breath Sirens howling inside my head Bound at the wrists with a chain that connects To the collared cuff that's around my neck Can't see much but I've got to move fast This could be the only chance I get If I don't make it back I'll be lost in the land of the wandering flesh For as long as I live (As long as I live) Madness It appears before me like a tidal wave With distorted thinking Just another game my mind likes to play When I'm not looking But anybody can blend in with the right disguise Minister, principal; commissioner, general sh**, whatever the mask is that you hide behind It's a red capsule / blue capsule concept David's human contact But things aren't so black and white, baby There are ways that we can get around that Green rings and yellow rings I tuck 'em away in my suit jacket breast pocket A way to rip the fabric of time and space apart when I demand it My American Gothic The voice of every outcast in the public The Caulfield reincarnate From the awkward kid who gets his head held underwater In the bathroom stall by the bully To the black bruise a father puts on his daughter I'm a masked man standing off in the corners Of your darkest moments With an S900 [Chorus] I don't know why I was put on this planet To live by the dollar or die by the gun I don't know if there's a hell or heaven And I don't know if I'm entitled to one Get lost in bad weather Embrace the nosedive With your knees to your elbows hoping you've been wide awake the whole time Blind, the mistakes of the mind Let it run off into a place it can hide Get a taste of the fire Ladder of Jacob with disclaimers on the side Guess I've gone berserk I don't belong here on this earth Must be a Southside wanderer ATX where the martians lurk [Verse 2] I'm standing on the roof of my building Overlooking I-35 traffic again Wearing a devil's advocate grin Feeling my jacket as it flaps in the wind Higher than I've ever been Not even knowing whether I'm dead or alive But I'm struggling to keep it together Cause it feels like my lungs are under a hundred tons of pressure And I'm underwater flailing helpless I swear Now before we begin, understand that the world you are entering And the one you've seen in the various planes of this realm Are two totally different things Every thought that I speak is cynical And every wound that I leave is critical The day I give into the hype'll be the day that the Hezbollah makes peace with Israel The darkness that got you lining up on the side of the road Pointing, calling me a criminal Grab your brain and squeeze it 'til it blows Like Amazon head-shrinking rituals Don't even try to resist it, motherf**ers I can see the coercive urges are forming now And it won't be long before you're running up on people Just to beat the sh** out of them Clockwork Orange style A psychologically tortured child Under physical and medical duress And even though kids on the playground always said he looked possessed He came from a religious family who never would have guessed That the the devil and the flesh had been reunited The type of psychopath, evil-minded To the point that he would watch the entire world burn to ashes Just to get some peace and quiet Our father, who art in heaven One week since my last confession Forgive me, for I have sinned Bless me so that I may be cleansed Our father, who art in heaven Two weeks since my last confession Know that I have sinned Bless me so that I may be cleansed [Chorus]