The Natural Profane - How to Be Alone lyrics

[Verse one] All I want to do is hold you Just one last time I guess I'm so alone without you, baby So alone without you, right All I want to do is hold you Just one last time I guess I'm so alone without you, baby So alone without you I'm sitting alone in my room all by myself On my third L, getting too high With nothing but my memories And a five-by-five picture to remember you by I thought that we would always stand together And withstand the weather f** what the mirror says But I guess I was mistaken I'm trying to clear my head but the tears I've shed Are only making me falter No longer is my body sixty percent water Every day you grow farther and farther away And that number gets smaller I'm finding it hard to concentrate Or focus on anything but you I get much too irate Mentally I contemplate how many more times one heart can break Before it can't be fixed I remember it like it was yesterday When we realized that things had been going downhill for months And they probably wouldn't ever change Left your place and we went our separate ways I walked home and balled up my fists But the second I got to my apartment: “sh**” It hit me like a wall of bricks And I realized [Chorus] I just want to hold you one last time It don't bother me Baby girl, you're still a part of me But I just want to hold you one last time It don't bother me Baby girl, you're still a part of me [Verse two] Why is life such a puzzling thing to me When all the other people I see Walk around with a sense of happiness so bubbly As they mingle, free All I do is look at them with sadness as the tears start Knowing that I'll never have the traits that they possess Or the will to fear God Got a distant relationship with the people I know But that sh** don't hurt Because every day is a constant struggle when you live in the world of an introvert When you see no advancement Just the occasional flashing moments When you can possess all but the most basic of human interaction But this ain't no Delta blues And this ain't no breakup song Like the ones that perpetuate how everything went wrong And how you can't move on ‘cause I've had a lot of time to think And it took three years for the pain to pa** But in retrospect, we were just very different people, Lindsey It's as simple as that Started getting my grind on Started making that music again Started looking at the world through a whole new lens And today I'm a brand new man But with that being said It doesn't mean I don't still love you to d**h It means that I've traded that love that I had In exchange for life and her beauty instead [Chorus]