The Missing - In Two lyrics

i am split in two sometimes i want to be a saint i wanna wallow in my sleaze one minute I'm a goddess and the next a b**h, diseased today i want to save the world and tomorrow watch it burn i come by my lessons painfully then forget all that I've learned when i want to i want to i want to when i want to i want to i know what i want i want everything i know what i want i want nothing i want to make you happy then beat the smile from your face i will become your downfall and your saving f**ing grace i want to be a virgin i want to f** you 'til you bleed i will worship you then spit in your face i don't want who i need but i want you i want you i want you when i want you i want you i know what i want i want everything i know what i want i want nothing i wish for happiness when my mind becomes my hell but sometimes there's comfort in my pain 'cause i know it so well i want to slay the demons that still haunt me day and night but sometimes I'm grateful for my fear it reminds me I'm alive but i hate to i hate to i hate to but i hate to be afraid no matter who you think you see it's only ever half of me inside my head is deafening please help me all i want is for this to stop i need all this to stop all i want is for this to stop i need all this to stop please god just make it stop god damn it never stops f** me just make it and i pray for some silence why am i two I's? the pain is slowly k**ing me the war that others cannot see it's what i go through 'cause i am in two i am split in two