The Menzingers - The Obituaries lyrics

We stumble and stare at the carnival lights, that lit up New York City From a rooftop in Brooklyn, that was covered in bad graffiti And then I let a thousand splinters pierce right through my spoiled liver Whatever that was left of it 'Cause I curse my lonely memory with picture perfect imagery Maybe I'm not dying, I'm just living in decaying cities But I'm still healthy, I'm still fine, I've been spending all my time Reading the obituaries But I will f** this up I f**ing know it I will f** this up I f**ing know it Well I will f** this up I f**ing know it I will f** this up I f**ing know it 'Cause I am the shadow of the waxwing slain I felt the false azure from windowpanes I am just freaking out, yeah I'll be fine But I will f** this up I f**ing know it I will f** this up I f**ing know it I will f** this up I f**ing know it I will f** this up I f**ing know it