The Livid - The Day I Understood lyrics

So far I stand, looking closely again It's loose but solid, so clean and tarnished So lost again, a map in my hand So full and empty, with so little but plenty At times we get so lost and devastated Our paths are vague but still so regulated At times we feel so tired of trying to try Wishing we could change all the things that make us Cry, I won't try to wash these tears out from my Eyes, I won't try, cause they're the kind that never Dry, they collide with everything I've ever tried to hide And keep inside Above, I'm sitting, so loose but fitting I'm starved by eating, so cured by bleeding My gut is misled by all the pictures I've read My memory's dead but you remain in my head Now I'm sealed but leaking So silently speaking. Now I understand I've confused my reading A door closed but open Brand spanking new and broken So belligerent and strident But I haven't even spoken