The Knowmads - Hurt Myself lyrics

Sometimes I think about if I lived a different way Or if I ended it the way I planned on Christmas day Never grew into a man what would the people think I hate alcohol because alcohol is a evil drink Nice that I don't care to remember at all and starin at the wall just wishin that that b**h would call back Slip and fall back into my depression deeper No answer but experience is the greatest teacher Cause now I don't fear nothin not even the Grim Reaper I've been deeper, people who promised me to be for me forever they wasn't there either My family treated my like a old pair of sneakers Worn out on the road with my speakers blown out Thinkin out loud "What the f** am I gonna do now" Wasn't the proudest of my moments when I begged a homie to let me sleep on his couch tomorrow cause I felt so lonely In the studio she said "You seem unusual, cause you're the one that shown me that life is beautiful" Truth used to go so far I felt like now honesty seems to have a very short shelf life The truth hurts I tried to hurt my self twice, first with sleeping pills, the second time I tried a knife I never felt that type of crazy in my life, made a atheist feel like I should pray to Jesus Christ I don't even know if god can hear me right But belief in something greater made my spirit fight Even when your window is fogged up plus your job s**s coughen up a few bucks What a dreary life. Let me reiterate move into a bigger state Down a interstate in the interest of bigger dinner plates Plan to shine like some stars that never disintegrate