The Jokerr - Meant to Be Alone lyrics

(Chorus) I just can't tell what the difference is, sorry It seems to be the same as it ever was, and the good get left with a heart of stone It's a lonely road I walk and I may be forever doomed to do so And it may be I'm just meant to be all alone [The Jokerr] Yo - all I ever wanted to do was be an artist And show the world the distinction between beauty and garbage I was given a conviction and followed it to its end And attempted to keep my head above water, won't sink or swim But oh , never was that simple And the depression and isolation encroached, lack of credential And oh, hold on I didn't have the first idea of what I got myself into or what was in store, I Find that it gets harder and harder to just breathe When the people I love so much all turn against me I make my effort concerted to stay consistent I'm certainly optimistic, but perfect is such a mission now I do the best that I can and all I get is judgement You seem to think it was easy believe me, please see it wasn't now I guess it doesn't matter 'cuz I'm the entertainer I'm a lonely fool and I guess to you only a bitter stranger now (Chorus) [Hiway] I'm apparently absorbing this therapy poorly, the weight of this Very unordinary disorder, no one should carry for me I'm terribly terraforming this area mourning an error With characters who couldn't afford to be there for me Paranoid, they're sporting a glare scorning Aaron, swearing I'm ignoring them, unaware I gave 'em a fair warning I'm airborne and I'm storming the door, confirmin Compare recordings - according to them, it comes with the territory And not to mention the tension between me and the misses She met a young MC who's kidless, it appears we conflicting interests Picturing me with different b**hes, she's got reason to be suspicious But I seem to resist this cheating she thinks I plead the fifth with, sh** Like how can I be just a father and faithful husband When you see me in all these environments and I say "Don't be afraid of nothin'!" No I don't have any mistresses, no way in hell an addiction is fair I fell in this business, I know damn well what the decision is, so miss this, but I just... (Chorus) [Masetti] All i wanted was there in the monastery Peace and love I can carry with me everyday but I barely Understand what's going on, trying hard to recover I'm looking over my shoulder for demons bringing me trouble I'm facing the wrong ways, feeling apart days Feeling like always, I'm here in a dark place Always I wait for that one day where Ill see the sun waves And I'll finally unchange I've been thinking lately would it make it right If I took my stress and anger and let it all out of my sight And give another chance to the people in my life They try to do me right or cut me like a knife but But I know the decision is on me Do I try to be with them or lay free? I can honestly say I don't need these thoughts have got me drifting apart and lately I don't know