The Jokerr - Box Full of Darkness lyrics

[Chorus: The Jokerr] I'm a box full of - Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness (3x) Im a box full of - Things that you should never see (and in a moment I might explode) And I'm gonna spill upon the ground, all the pain like blood and - (and they'we been warned) Just exactly what I've been speaking of when I - Sing I'm a box full of - Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness I'm a box full of - Darkness, darkness, darkness, darkness [Verse 1 - The Jokerr] Okay, back when I was young there was love lost Between me and my dad, it was cut off When I saw mom with her skull cracked in Next to me on the bed in a puddle full of blood sauce Locked in a room and screaming Try'na wake her up but she just kept bleeding He rolled her on her side so she didn't choke on her tongue And she woke up soaked from dry heaving He took a look around the room and his boy And his wife and he said 'f** this, I'm leaving' Unplugged the TV and the VCR Then he disappeared in the evening Left the 8-year-old Aithen alone in the house Looking for the car keys and Covered in blood, helping mother to the car So she could drive herself to the ER for treatment And one year before that I was sitting up in a crackhouse With a crackwho*e babysitting me And watching my dad smoke a pipe on the couch With this hooker giving him head, I remember so vividly And then came a knock at the door The SWAT, like 30 cops deep coming in like the infantry He scrambled to the back door, two shots and he stopped And his track said 'don't shoot', the intensity Was so great that I blacked out And I woke up in a squad car, next thing I knew my grandparents are picking me up from the precinct My asthma had me out of breath and confused And before I knew he was locked up and mommy said 'daddy ain't coming home' And 12 years later I was sitting in the ICU with a cracked face of my own, huh... [Chorus] [Verse 2 - BlackWaltz] And I go deep in my mind And see just what I can find All of my darkest memories Constantly play and rewind And I'm just sitting here Thinking about my mom I lost my senior year From a heart attack Right in front of me and my sister And it's clear that this was the start Of a downward spiral with d** And nameless substances in abundance In front of us, yeah, I f**ed this up It didn't matter what it was I just fix it and shoot it up Or crush it down, make a couple of rails And then just [?flew?] them up Looking back, this sh** makes me cringe And it's f**ing disgusting Even tried to hang myself But my homie found me and cut me Down and *BLAOW* and my feet hit the ground I was so f**ing happy to be alive My heart was pounding and well I've been clean ever since Quit my daily regimen Then 8 years later I moved back in with my sister again And she was still getting f**ed up on Seroquil and Oxy's Regardless of how hard we tried to get her to stop She just wouldn't listen... She died of accidental overdose And it k**s me that her children Are the ones who found her comatose... [Chorus]