The Jane Austen Argument - Maintain the madness lyrics

I went to New York and paid lots of money To stay in the silence and not play for anyone I picked up a bar tab and drank myself stupid I flirted with strangers just to feel attractive I stood on a rooftop and looked to the skyline The cloud started rolling in as I start to say "Goodbye" to my grandfather who's at home dying The rain started in and I was left crying... Cos I've got to maintain the madness Just so the stillness makes sense to me I've got to keep the momentum rolling along So that no-one can stop me No-one can drag me Home I went to San Francisco with my best friend To sing in a bar full of gay men who wanted me But they did not know me though they thought I sang pretty I made love to the microphone so they would not feel So empty inside on this wintery night In this city of madmen and loners and stoners And lovers forgotten in favour of rotten misfortunes with money But I still went home alone Cos I've got to maintain the madness Just so the stillness makes sense to me I've got to keep the momentum rolling along So that no-one can stop me No-one can drag me Home But now I'm here in Boston In love with Downtown Crossing In this very room where some of my favourite songs have been written I'm writing this one To sing and remember These days in December Where I have surrendered I'm not pretending To stay still... So next week I'll go to Iceland Then onto London And into the arms of my favourite stranger And then onwards Cos I cannot I will not I cannot I will not I will not I cannot I will never stop... Cos I've got to maintain the madness Just so the stillness makes sense to me I've got to keep the momentum rolling along So that no-one can stop me No-one can drag me Home