The Cumshots - And The Sun Pissed Red lyrics

I've been good for weeks now I tell you I'm in control I've got my sh** together I know when I should fold It's just tonight Nothing at all to fear You'll be with me all the time It's not like I could run off anywhere I go right home But I won't be alone A thousand in cash And a mobile phone Don't know how to stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirlpool again Don't think I'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel alive It's that constant burden Of trying to make it bearable When my life is so f**ed up And so far from repairable That makes me look For that final nail for my coffin It's way past midnight But I find hundres in the nothing (The same lies I've told everybody including myself a hundred times) I go right home But I won't be alone A thousand in cash And a mobile phone Don't know how I'll stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirlpool again Don't think I'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel alive Wide awake, I never went to bed Naked by the window and the sun is pissing red My hands look rusty, guess my nose has bled Then I remember what my father said Don't know how I'll stop I sure can't tell you when I am lost in that whirlpool again Don't think 'll ever stop Can't see a reason why Only dying makes me feel alive