Taproot - I lyrics

I'm seeing tunnel vision in a world that's dark and cold I can't believe how much I've changed since the days of old I know It's temporary but I need to focus straight I can't believe I lost control of my fate I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I'm gonna win I can't afford to blow this one I hate myself sometimes I love myself I need this way of life Because it holds me I hate myself sometimes I love myself If contradiction's the way of life Happiness is wealthiness is healthy Now that I've made it through those lies and deceit I think what's done is done and I can't complain anymore I am sure That I have found myself again it feels great I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I'm gonna win I can't afford to blow this one I hate myself sometimes I love myself I need this way of life because it holds me I hate myself sometimes I love myself If contradiction's the way of life Happiness is wealthiness is healthiness