Sworn In - Oliolioxinfree lyrics

I've begged for d**h one too many times Singing and screaming these useless rhymes But this time I'll take control I'll lay down and accept my role My heart is turning f**ing black You had your fingers crossed behind your back My heart is turning f**ing black I'm screaming oliolioxinfree Cause I can't find my sanity Where could it be? Is this even me? Is this even me? I'm not suicidal I swear Oops I forgot that I don't care To appease your standards To be the better man Withering dry doing everything I can I don't get sh** back And I'm tired of that Because everything you hate in me is everything you lack Get up Get out f** me till I can think again f** me till I can feel again f** me until I can feel My world's collapsed So it's time to relapse Where I shut myself down And pull apart the scraps So long to who you knew Cause I changed before you withdrew It's true, I'm through, I have no clue who I am Just a useless f**ing shell of a bitter broken man I hate my own head I wish I was dead I dream of knives and blood dripping red (dripping red) This isn't a scene from a silver screen And there's no f**ing way to wipe myself clean The pieces I stole just turned into coal Always knew it was my role Always knew I was a dead soul