Swollen Members - The Shining lyrics

[Chorus] My head keeps spinnin and spinnin and spinnin I don't know if this is the end or it's the beginnin Man I'm losin my mind, I think I'm losin my mind I think I'm losin my mind, I sink deeper try to keep it in line I'm feeling like I wanna die I'm an addict, I'm not talkin 'bout a f**in marijuana high f** the gangster talk, I'll smash your teeth in with the baby Glock I'm a mental patient spittin crazy talk I'm talented but life's a balancing act And I am way off of alignment, the payoff isn't time yet I'm so f**in broke I'm puttin clothes up for consignment I used to be white lightning Now I'm sittin in a dark cloud, wonderin where my mind went Y'all know where to find me Behind closed blinds, I'm on my typewriter While I watch a spider climbin up the wall To spin a web, and catch a fly and watch him die He s**s all of the blood out of him then I start to cry I don't know why, I don't know why he swallowed a fly You're all gonna die that's my only comfort I smashed my iPhone before you get my number I'm clinically insane, mentally deranged Hangin from a string strangled by a chain I guess all of the d** have done a number on my brain, f** it [Chorus: x2] Yo I look up in the sky, I see the sun shining So why's my mind spinning, Arkham Asylum Dark Knight, Ra's al Ghuls, Scarecrows, Jokers, Riddlers Catwomen and Penguins, Spidey sense is tingling Hobgoblin, Doc Oc, Sandman, and Venom My mind starts to die like it's indigo denim Time for me to Sean Penn 'em, lose 21 grams It's the game at close range, I'm the Falcon, he's the Snowman He's drinkin down a Pepsi while I'm openin a Coke can My first show in front of ten thousand out at Snow Jam No man, old man, take a look at my life Carve my name in the tree with my own pocket knife Yeah I'm cla**ic Old Spice, you a Spice Girl, Scary Selling off my mental property, "Glen Ross Glengarry" And I know it's around here somewhere on the property buried But I'm plastered like a poster Obey, Shepard Fairey 6:30 every mornin, is when I get up like Banksy Jet to the studio Mad's trippin sittin angtsy It's reality and fantasy but I can't separate My feet are on the ground so how the f** my body levitate? [Chorus: x2] In no way is this meant to disrespect my family or God Yeah okay seven day coke binge, h**n in tinfoil Heroin in pill form, brain egg hardboiled Mad child chase dragon, turn into a gargoyle Grade 7 mom took me shopping down at Park Royal This is not the life that I have dreamt about Mentally I'm emptied out, rapping while I vent with a demented mouth Sentimentally my sentiments are printed out Now stick a knife inside me, giving you something to think about Insanity, it's hereditary, grandma got dementia Grandma tried to k** herself, she's suffering from depression And mad child suffer from depression So am I going to try to k** myself is constantly my question [Chorus: x2]