Stefan Ark - Therapy lyrics

[intro] Hiyah man, what seems to be the problem today? You need some Therapy?...huh? (x2) [Verse 1] I've always been optimistic Seeing Wanting and believing in a better future So that my misconceptions are not illusions First common aspect of delusion Caught in my feelings since I was a little kid Always thinking that I was society's Little pig Feeding on society's polluted farms I have to make I don't act like a swine Drink no wine and stay alarmed I'm a domesticated pig So don't be afraid to use me as a rig The only thing I remember from my Childhood is being so depressed So I try and keep all the memory's From my childhood compressed I know I'm in therapy But I just wanna keep some things suppressed... Oh...so you really want to hear the rest? Bullied to the core made me feel so foolish Every time someone knocked I was like “Who is it?” Felt so lonely so I wrote a couple love letters To myself..it read 'From yours truly' I know I'm a freak...an oddity Flashing through my old pictures Trying to paint a perfect picture With a smile on my face on every picture Unable to see the rapture my fathers Cowardness would cause What a rapture in my family's life It would cause.... No need for a pause...hold the applause His departure left my childhood scarred With hopes and wishes of a bright future Always having dreams of a bright future The only thing I cared about was my dad coming back I guess I could never really see the future I'm such a f**ing looser Tears after tears after tears, Fears after fears after fears So many tares in my heart which could not be sowed back together Broken hearted forever Call me the black panther,no racism I'm just a Black panther In my soul, a wild beast trying to let go (let go) I need a vacation, a trip down memory lane So excited, but would I return sane? I can't bare the pain, it's a rarity Only trying to remember the sweet things May cause a cavity My life's never been sweet so that's a rarity Let me look to the future, I spot a sign of clarity [breakdown] [Verse 2] What did y'all expect a chorus? There's no melody to life There's no chorus in me There's no happy time in Therapy 'This ain't kindergarten' Life sometimes feels like a garden Myths and legends, the garden of Eden Who do you believe in? Reflecting on my life since the age of seven Constantly depressed until the age of eleven Will I ever be someone? Or am I living in limbo? Life hates me, but I predict a couple of empires and a limo Do you catch my M.O? No sinierita? No Problemo I don't see straight all I see is a downward spiral like elmo Sorry I went of tempo but now you catch my memo I'm trying to let go, to get a little bit of clarity 'the Devil is a lie' this Is what I repeat to myself To receive some clarity My conscience will be the d**h of me Let my emotions devour the rest of me Let me write a d**h note to myself saying 'Rest in peace' Because all I want in my life is some peace So rest in pieces [Outro]