Staten - Dogwood lyrics

[Zachary Fader] How could you just throw this all away? We built this home, we built a family [Staten] What, why do you think this is easy for me? Everything's loud and I just want quiet, please [Zachary Fader] If you needed it all along You should've told us a while ago Instead of shutting yourself off Instead of acting like you don't belong [Staten] Well I don't, you can't tell me what to feel When I still feel so hollow Surrounded by love but still alone That's what hurts me most Knowing that I'm loved And not being good enough To keep up with everyone Why would you place your faith in me? I was never strong cause I choked Another opportunity I'll go back home with what's left of me [Verse 1] We both ran from mistakes We left behind Did it help at all? Cause I still feel them in my spine They break it down; Numbness as if paralyzed I hear the thorns growing The dogwood forming my demise [Pre-Chorus: ZF] Familiar in the strangest place The height of hell with a saving grace [ST] You don't mean that Please don't think that [ZF] Are you afraid to call this home? The fear you hear is an undertone [ST] But it's not so quiet Wish it were quiet [Chorus: ZF] You'll regret this If you leave [ST] And you'll forget me When I'm gone [ZF] Just be honest, I know it's not easy [ST] When I arrive They'll forget their palms [Verse 2: ST] There's nothing for me I'm just living for nothing Dirty and helpless Come pick up this garbage I'll drown myself in that lagoon It's a dumpster To all of the things that I can't accomplish Stop this No f** this, this place is so haunted Memories die but they live on this concrete And walk like they're human but dearly departed A kingdom of graves, devoid of all solace [ST] I'll fall apart like the rest of them Lose myself with all my kin Cause I don't see a life worth living If I don't die a saint, then I'll die as a sinner Fall apart like the rest of them Lose myself, then I'll lose my pain Cause I don't see a life worth living If I don't die a saint