Staind - It's Been Awhile lyrics

It's been awhile since I could hold my head high And it's been awhile since I first saw you And it's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile since I could call you But everything I can't remember As f**ed up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well And it's been awhile since I've gone and f**ed things up, just like I always do And it's been awhile, but all that sh** seems to disappear when I'm with you But everything I can't remember As f**ed up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and f**ed things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day And it's been awhile since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face And it's been awhile, but I can still remember just the way you taste But everything I can't remember As f**ed up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me And it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry