Spok Beats - Nothing Left (OFFICIAL LYRICS) lyrics

Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Such an old soul with such a young spirit People try to tell me how to live my life, I don't wanna hear it & it's not cuz I'm not good at listening But I'm not commissioning any human to be belittling me I'm distancing myself, it's interesting Cuz when I took that step back I couldn't believe what I was witnessing In the scene, behind the scenes, f** it, nevermind the scene These people think I don't see their true intentions when they be lying to me I try to be myself and I try to be true But when I look in the mirror, I don't know if I see Reverie or you This relationship is so utterly complicated Cuz Reverie provokes thoughts of everything that I've ever hated Frustrated and jaded. My heart was invaded- Persuaded by prevaricational fantasies to remain sedated I waited, I dictated my struggles and my devestation Unmotivated & tainted I live my life intoxicated Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me So tell me how you'd deal with these split personalities ? One focuses on life and the other upon the casualties See gradually I'm fading, so damn focused on the trauma Only person that still sees me as “Jordan” would be my mama Put it on ya if you want it. You could say my house was haunted Took four pills to murder my baby, felt her coming out of my stomach I could still feel the pain if I close my eyes tight enough It was bright enough, I didn't cry enough I thought about it every night, I didn't die, but what Snapped in my f**en brain- it would never be the same I can't say that I regret it, just admitting to the pain Anyway ! where am I going with this story ? I'm just venting Tend to get carried away in these therapeutical sentences Remember this when I die: I hated breathing You can call me masochistic and insane but I prefer bleeding & what I'm needing is some wings to fly away Or a time machine to get me the f** away from today Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me