Sirius (Kristian Rønning) - f** Up lyrics

[Verse 1] Sunk so deep you won't believe I can't proceed with this over me I know what you think when you say my name Talk about me like "Oh he changed," Another dope is up his nose And I don't know if I can trust him And the smell of alcohol is too much for me to go hug him And it's hard to take, hard to watch, hard to look away But it's worst to be in the middle of this sh** Try to make up why to stay So I underestimate people, lie to myself But I'm easy to see trough Used to be so proud but, take a look at these eyes Take a look at me now Everybody got a problem with me But then again no one said life's easy Now I gotta watch where I put my feet Some don't even want to look at me Every now and then I think back If I took another choice where will I be at? Momma said I'm proud of you, and my dad want to help me, guide me through And I DO want to change, but I keep coming back to the same old same Snort a line, while I write a rime about quitting sh** for a better life What the f** is that, where's the discipline? This thing to bring out the b**h in me And did I make this song for the sympathy? I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it [Hook] Look into my nephew's eyes, I see myself back when I didn't care about nothing, I'll rather be alone for now Figure out how to bring myself back down on the ground Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine And I was supposed to be scared of heights, like what happened? I guess we changed, some for the better, some for the worse I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts [Verse 2] It's dark tonight, I miss the sunlight I miss saying things like "Thanks I'm alright." When you ask me how I'm feeling, well I'm happy when I'm dreaming It's a whole other world in my head when I close my eyes in my bed Cause I make up places and people, replace myself if I need to Three little birds on my doorstep I see what it means when I go there So peaceful, so quiet, all alone, but self reliant I came to the point when I put the mic down and said I'm done And with a life like this you might just feel like putting steel on your tongue Cause I swear to God, I've seen suicides, I knew people who took the wrong So rest in peace to the people I knew, cause I know you can hear my song And I will be strong for me and you, do what they tell me that I can't do In all your names, I'mma fight, so I walk on the stage for you tonight So when the light hits me I'mma shine for you Bottom line I'mma lie for you, they gotta k** me to make us meet again Cause I'm never giving up, I ain't leaving yes It's not for me no more, it's for all of us I see you when I see you, I love you all [Hook]