Peter Hammill - In the End lyrics

I promise you, I won't leave a clue: No tell-tale remark, no print from my shoe Still, a steady trail to the water's edge... I will keep my pledge to the end: I intend to go free No more rushing around, no more travelling chess; I guess I'd better sit down, you know I do need the rest.... Yes, it's time to resign with equanimity and placidity From the game I can't explain; I can't relate.... Have I done it all too late? Now is the time for the commission to report; Till lately, I thought I'd been planted Trying hard to make it all come real Permission to feel is ungranted But now it's happening I'd like to keep it private if I can; Last words, last looks, make a final stand Now my number's come up on the Pools I guess I'll board the Titanic for a cruise.... Now is the time to make my status clear Too late, I fear, and lonely As friends and enemies traverse the stage; All in a rage disown me And all the pit-props shatter into dust about my ears: Memory and conscience, hope and fear As I crawl out further on the limb Something tells me I am crawling In to unknown prophecies and lives The rainbow's end is hemmed around with knives.... As I stand on the boards and the stage lights grow dim Shall I go out of doors, or shall I maybe go in? Have I reached the point when I should take my cue And follow you and your signs? I can't remember my lines As the prompter cat-calls And the cards all fall In the strike All the pages are thin, all the corners are curled Does the starshine fall in through my window on the world? Or am I living out (the seeds of doubt) a chronicle of revenge? The willow bends As do my hands; Do you understand? And will you still be my friend in the end? When my mouth falls slack And I can't summon up another tune Shall I then look back and say I did it all Too soon?