Pentimento - Conscience (Consequence) lyrics

I'm making excuses to justify my conclusions And bypa** convictions that I have I'm not ashamed to admit my feelings Until it comes down to someone who counts I'm acting like I'm supposed to save the world But I just want to seem real to other people It's in the way that my brain tells my mouth to say something relevant To get a laugh and feel approved I still imagine how often old dead trees show the wind Just to prove they have the worth Like how much we disregard ourselves Just to treasure someone else And I'm still speaking like it's possible to change But it's not possible to wait As the days and nights continue, you can see it taking shape It's nothing into nothing, always running in place So I talk to all my friends about the quicksand that I'm in As if it'd change the way I live (I can't stay stuck like this forever) There's been so many autumns since then And many "others" that have came and went I'll never look at anything that we once had the same way again I can't stay stuck like this I'll never look at this the same way again I can't stay stuck like this forever