PastorDAVE - The Vent lyrics

[Verse 1: Pastor Dave] Every night I think I escape "the madness" but then the morning comes You ever felt out of place, well I have more than once And to make me feel better I began poking fun It's not a good method to ease the pain it just the closest one And I guess that's where my flaws began to open up And as I continue to write this I start choking up I start choking up these bars I just hope someone soaks them up Id like to think I'm a new man as if I sobered up But I'm just the same piece of sh** that you ain't believing Everything you do I just resent for no reason One day I'll be on my knees repent and start pleading Begging to start over but by then my hearts leaking On the track my hearts leaking Stomach in a knot like I'm taking shots and I'm Sea sick Believe it or not I may have a reason To act the way I do so with me you have to reason And when you hear this you'll probably say it's about a girl close to me You don't know who this is about even if you close to me Same face no emotion as if I grabbed a poker seat I'm good at hiding how I feel and I guess that's how it's supposed to be And when I'm down and out I guess there's no consoling me Deal with my problems by my self there ain't not much more to me And I guess deep Down I kind of promote the beef The only way I know you care ain't no shoulder to cold for me When you grew up f**ed up, you see nobody's perfect I'm far from it, but closer on the surface But what you see is a piece of sh** I'm worthless Stay putting on a front in these motherf**ing verses Screaming out preach but I don't know where the church is Most things, is proven, uncertain Smoke screens, illusions, gold hearses All to cover up deep down what's re-emerging Man I'm just trying to as real as I can be You can't understand if you don't realize what I see From my perspective and deal with it to my relief But if were ever on the same page I'll just stand here in disbelief So as I start to wipe this blood up of this leaf I come to terms that there's no love inside of me Trials and tribulations demolish what's there until it's weak And now I only have hate towards those who think but never speak