Panic - My Favorite Mistake Was You lyrics

Alone at night i think about what i'd do If the person i was meant to be - ever shines through How i spend my days trying to be The kind of kid that you want close to you And i kno how this one ends We want the ones that we can't have So what the f** is wrong with me? Why can't i let go of you? The first time all i saw were your eyes And now i can't stand to look inside them It's not your distance that's k**ing me It's being close to you that makes me close to myself And i can't stand the way i am I push away the ones who love me And i embrace the apathy And hang from all your lies And if i could i'd take back my words And heal my heart If i could i'd take back the secrets My stiched up heart If i could i'd forget your face A brand new start If i could i'd show you how You tore me apart