Jon-C - Mask For The Pain lyrics

[Verse 1: Charlie Fettah] Hey yo, Hey yo Hey yo, progression that's kind of a vague description Battling depression, they got me on prescriptions I'm chasing ghosts, but I'm not adding to addition I'm messing up my money I'm a walking contradiction Struggling just to maintain or have a pot to piss in Listen I'm going crazy, reality feel like fiction Plus I'm an alcoholic, 40 pandas out the mileage Drunk driving, f** a cab, sh** I couldn't call it Cause I lost my cell phone and my f**ing wallet I'm past falling, homie I'm one of the fallen Lost in the liquor, calories clog up my ticker Reminiscing on the good times, holding onto the picture I know it's wrong drinking vodka by the pitcher Wrap my body round the bottle like a boa constrictor Hangover after hangover I'm only getting sicker My lies sweep together, like I'm sitting on wicker [Hook: Charlie Fettah & Merkules] I got nothing to lose in the mask for the pain Umbrella for the rain, and gas for the flame In the pa**enger lane and it baffles my brain Halfway insane man it can't be the same I got nothing to lose in the mask for the pain Umbrella for the rain, and gas for the flame In the pa**enger lane and it baffles my brain Halfway insane man it can't be the same [Verse 2: Jon-C] Sitting here alone, going crazy in this room Mind playing tricks, I can read my own tomb Fell to the floor, swept with a broom Forever rest in peace, you f**ing goon I know what life's missing, lost track in the mission For five years now, I've been living on conditions Lost a big part of life through transitions But I'm back now, like a f**ing magician See them rough times, tell the front lines Bled for my brothers out there all dying Rest in peace to all my fallen soldiers From ya boy still stuck in the cold here All my life I've been living the blues Been parading the innocent man in front of the news For being me, that's the only excuse Cause I'm full of tattoos and got nothing to lose [Hook] I got nothing to lose in the mask for the pain Umbrella for the rain, and gas for the flame In the pa**enger lane and it baffles my brain Halfway insane man it can't be the same I got nothing to lose in the mask for the pain Umbrella for the rain, and gas for the flame In the pa**enger lane and it baffles my brain Halfway insane man it can't be the same [Verse 3: Merkules] I bought a ticket just to sit and watch the madness Zoned out, paint drips across the canvas Listen and establish, my sh** is for the ma**es Trippin' over caskets to live a life of lavish I stay calm like a gentleman would In my neck of the woods, there's no getting what's good So we struggle and we strive, hit the bucket then we die Like we're stuck inside a lie, motherf**ers wonder why But it's easy, simple, read between the lines And you'll see you gotta try instead of scheming to get by I see it as a prize, but we leading different lives So I leave it all behind and keep it even with my pride I'm born iller than these other rap dudes Need a crib in Cancun, I just win I can't lose No scrilla, but I'm paying mad dues And I'm playing mad shows, so they say I'm bad news [Verse 4: Charlie Fettah] Hi I'm Tyler Rogers, a.k.a. Mr. Mess Up Mask keep me disguised, they call me Mr. Dress Up Bout to tell the truth, I hope you other rappers catch up Sick of lying to my fans, I think it's time I fess up I got some problems that I do not tell you bout You may have heard a rumor, grapevine or word of mouth That I'm off my rocker, so get to the chopper Because I'm strapped with a bomb looking like Dennis Hopper But there's some truth in it I'm a grenade with no pin in it The stress is infinite, all I see is a dim image Black liquid, blood flowing, my dream twisted Brown liquor, green twisted, I'm getting lifted No matter where I go I always feel low Struggle through the pain to remain in the world I know Collect my soul, and walk into the light Can't let these regrets plague the rest of my life I'm gone