Johnny Viti - Three Feet Deep lyrics

I sit inside my room and think of everything I f**ed up/ And everytime I tryta speak, the voices in my head tell me to shut up/ I sit in silence staring at the wall just hoping sh** gets better/ Nothing ever happens, the only change is in the weather/ So I bury every feeling, and I hope I can be saved/ Cause soon enough I'll see the edge and then I'll start to break/ My ceiling fan is spinning, so is every thought I get/ So I'm overthinking simple sh** and soon I'll just be dead/ I find it kinda crazy, just the power of the mind/ It can self destruct my body with a simple thought of mine/ It's like a f**in disease, yeah, that no one ever sees/ I think I'm f**ing sick without the cough or the sneeze/ I can diagnose myself, cause I don't need a doctor visit/ If you really wanna help, you can sit down and listen/ And f** it ill admit it, yeah i'm scared as all hell/ But you're the one that did it, you never caught me when I fell/ I'm cold and bitter hearted, and I don't know when it started/ I think it's a mechanism for the times I should've been guarded/ It's hard to break the wall when it's constantly being fortified/ It's hard to watch a generation of negative being glorified/ But here we go again, I don't like a thing about me/ There's nothing to distract the constant doubts that surround me/ Sometimes I think of memories and friends of the past/ And I'll lay there with a smiiile, just wishin I was back/ I try to avoid reality in hopes it'll leave/ Sometimes I think it might but the feeling is brief/ Emptiness inside from all the pain I tryta hide/ I'm just another f**in kid who's sick of life and all it's lies/ And everything will get to me, no matter what I try/ I'm left inside my bedroom where I sit and start to cry, goodbye/