JØHNNY JC - 5 Am In Tears lyrics

[1st Verse Johnny Jc] It's 5 Am Can't sleep I'm wondering why Because all these problems Overwhelming as they eat me alive Feel like f**ing zombie All the sh** he perscribed To keep me calm in my thoughts Sane in my mind Feel like a felon behind bars Michelle was the crime The only time i get to vent Is when it's visiting time That's when i grab the f**in pen And start scribbling lines To tell you how i f**ed up And how I'm dealing with mine But that's Not the only issue i came to address I honestly wish someone would put a bullet to his chest I'm sorry i don't mean it I've been really outta touch With the peaceful side of me Cuz Lately i don't give a f** Girls say i have an issue expressing my feelings But when i talk about my feelings They don't understand the meanings It's double meaning And the underlying problem is depression And that can top it off Like the like the salad to my dressin So give me some whiskey Watch me get all pissy And stumble out the bar drunk Tellin someone to do sumthin Because i don't care i'll punch you in the face For no reason Got repressed anger feel like releasing these Demons Don't take it the wrong way I'm not gon cop out You won't find me on some p**y sh** With a Glock in my mouth I'm just tryna make you feel How i feel for a minute 5 am in my mind insomnia b**hes [Beat Changes] [Verse 2 Johnny Jc] I wanna let my feelings out Cuz i don't wanna go down this route Cuz the road that i walk alone is so cold Believe me I've been here before I don't wanna be there again So thank god that i have my friends And thank god that i have my fam I don't ever wanna lose them god damn You don't know what's going on in my brain Maf**as can't tell me sh** about pain See i been through the fall and I dealt with the loss Just recently broke those chains But it haunts me yeah it haunts me Some nights when im asleep And it creeps in my dream to let me know my soul it eats See i don't get over sh** Nah I put it behind a shield Then i nearly lose my mind When they try to tell me how to feel And this shot in the gla** won't heal it But got damn it'll numb this feeling But the whole in my heart too big So now i got a hoe that will swallow feeling And that sh** don't come with out guilt Can't even imagine the issues i built But i guess that just life and we gotta Play with the card thats dealt So that's why the f** i rap Vent a little bit before the gat go "BAP" Put it to my brain Curt Cobain "BANG" But i would never do some p**y a** sh** like that