John Daniel - Beside Myself lyrics

[Intro verse- J. Daniel] I don't need separation, separation needs me Preparations in place, apologize if need be [P. Thompson] Yo, I'm ready to leave Someone call me a taxi I just wanna lay back And fall asleep in the backseat I'm too overcome to come back to the surface Replay the whole scene Trying hard to reverse it In my mind I'm still on a couple milligrams Understand I'm over the limit Wouldn't want to withstand Quicksand and skyscrapers Touching the pavement Man, these nightmares are nothing to play with Piece of Vicodin I'm startin' over again Hopin' being over-anxious isn't more than a trend Still lookin' for a rational for my ways (Still lookin' for an exit to appear in the haze) How am I supposed to leave When I'm stuck in the moment I'm the last one You wanna leave your conscience alone with Never defeatin' myself Or want to improve Maybe the clock is tickin' And I'm stuck in the mood [J. Daniel] I'm a victim of my own actions of past acting Decisions stay drastic Hopin' to impact blasts Tell God he's a ba*tard From all the ma** actions I know your motive It's not me you're intact with (When I'm alone) Split the transit dome It lets me be the pa** alone Being different Has sh** to do with me being grown So it's set in stone You know my thoughts, I'm prone In the zone Never worry 'bout my tone Look All I ever did was care We had time to spare Feelings they tear Knowing that I'm past your pair They stare Life ain't fair At least give me a chance And I'll believe it If you tell me I can Serotonin's at an all time low Bare bones All I show Stay where I can see Don't worry How far I can throw Cause Trust ain't something that I invest in f** the message I'm avoidin' learnin' lessons f** impressin' Finally f** fittin' in Odds are down Still I hope y'all bid that I win But you won't There goes my idealism Lights out I wanna feel that incision Listen Before I get ahead on my psyche Can't find me? Therapy's where I might be And know that Double-up on the Prozac Only have to prove what I haven't shown Ca** Some mornings I don't even wanna face the day So I close the blinds And remain in disarray And I can't let go of anything not worth-while The kids contemplate what they're worth-while I know that I'm at the bottom of my own bracket No, I'll stay an artist As a person I never lasted That's why I don't trust anyone Aside from myself You don't have to ask No, I'm beside myself [P. Thompson] (Yo, yo,) I'm not afraid of the dark I'm scared of what I think when I'm in it Inhibited thoughts If I'm not coping properly Probably my fault Constant apologies Honestly I just wanna see whatever these walls can see Narrow hallways Desire and pitfalls You all look the same on my list of missed calls You all sound the same as the voices in my head That's why I'm still in love with my therapist Part of me can't deal with some of the parts Like all of me Isn't enough to light a candle in the dark I'm heartless They say I'm too delusional To know the rest Well f** y'all I'm at the window staring at the bridge How am I supposed to know How to hide myself When I despise anyone Who ever tried to help Besides, I'm too anxious to thank myself For never leaving me alone I'm beside myself [Outro Verse- P. Thompson] Uh, In control But I wanna ignore it Manipulatin' moods Stuck in the moment