Emerson Brooks - Understand lyrics

[1st Verse - Emerson Brooks] It replays in my head Set a blaze this bed Just in case you forget We should of never left you Would you of had my eyes And seen my reason why I took your chance to fly In retrospect to life [Hook] I'm on my way to get it right for the first time in my life You may not see it now but all I need from is you is to be around / can you please [2nd Verse – Flex] How can I bring a life inside of this earth When I all I see in front of me is not would I prefer For them to live in, Life's got me feeling imprisoned Not even thinking, given indecision a listen I been stressing, which in turn brings into question My past, present and the future of my plan of progression But don't step in, and say you can relate my pain Better refrain from the same weak attempts that you claim Can make a change, I've seen the most frigid of weather with no sweater Never tell me that it gets better, enjoy pressure So I'm on the edge of my seat, hoping to see what I can be when motivation is weak Now would it seem that I'm fit to start a family tree When it's so clear to see this enemy has always been me What could it be that's got me so up in arms I need to know to give me to reason to keep pushing on Trying to be strong [3rd Verse – Sha Prince] Try to numb the pain runaway from black clouds In a lifestyle steps taken so fragile Cracks any moment feeling cursed in my gla** house Pins and needles directed evil Confined in the younger mind in they search of freedom I try to understand what's missing My father figure was slipping Outside our door forever until his body lifted Years later I was gifted with my baby girl To bad he left us in misery Before his curtain closed but life moves on we in delivery My 2nd child see's the world She the apple of my eye love her to d**h Come back reborn and love her more For eternity my journey is this To be a father that do really exist 9th inning pitch still there routing for that team I love them both they was made by a queen that's undeniable