Doms Gauge - 1993 lyrics

[Intro : Doms Gauge] Come and ride with me Let me show you what my eyes have seen This is my story its the life of me [Verse : Doms Gauge] It was 1993 March 4th A baby born in a house The same one that my Mom still lives in now The same one that I used to run away from Cause I didn't wanna follow her rules and so she kicked me out But I don't even put the blame on my mother The fighting and the arguing she did the same with my brother And I couldn't help it when I saw him as a role model and Anything he did at the time I was gon' follow him He was doing bad, my Mom made him move Out with my Dad and eventually I did too Made a couple friends around there Started to skip school Chilling getting high You know doing what kids do We got into music early, yeah we started young Playing instruments communicating with guitar and drums And when I started to rhyme he got behind that On a fruity loops demo making beats while I rapped And as for the weed, we would smoke a bit But then it turned to other d** in higher dosages He got into a relationship with a girl that wasn't great for him So maybe he was taking em to cope with it When those broken emotions mix with opiates They tend to get a hold of your mind and take control of it I didn't know it was a problem, I didn't notice it Until that night I saw him at the homie's crib He was all faded, mixing different prescriptions I tried to get him to stop but nah he just wouldn't listen So I remember sitting on the couch, I was shedding tears Tryna think about what could've lead him here Was it all the d** that was f**ing with him mentally Was it tainted love, was it all because of ... That's when he sat down next to me, told me it would be okay Those were the last words I ever heard him say So I went home And I still remember waking up To his girl crying and screaming he isn't waking up After that happened I'd lay in the same place he was And think of that morning the paramedics came to take him, f** Think of the night before when I watched him take the d** And maybe I could've changed it all if I was brave enough I'm laying here till my guardian angel comes Cause I got some demons that I'm hoping she can save me from When my brother died I was mummified Stomach tied in knots As my father and my mother cried I found a four leaf clover Wished he would wake up in that hospital bed But my apparently my luck was running dry Now all I can really do is wonder why There comes a time We all gotta look d**h in the f**ing eyes And no I'm not suicidal but I ain't gonna lie I thought of ending it all just to see him on the other side But then I thought of what happens if I don't see him The devil and jesus ain't exactly what I believe in And the fact that I'd be leaving all my family behind That's equivalent to getting a knife jammed in the spine I stand right here with my right hand to the sky And hope he's looking down from the sun If those clouds are a balcony I know he's watching proud of me And proud of what I'm about to become I'ma do this for you I never knew it would've been so soon that you would go Took your old room and I turned it into a studio I'm destined for this music sh** and you always knew it bro I even spit a rap as a eulogy at your funeral Only 13, thinking part of me nearly died Teary eyes Trying to recite the lyrics I Wrote on the ride there Hoping one day I'd get to wake up from this nightmare And you'd be right there We used to listen to music We would go to shows Now I'm playing my own And you can't go to those It's got me looking at your urn on the shelf At least I get to tell my story to the world so it helps All these years pa** and I can't forget what I felt Whether you're in heaven or hell Or anywhere else They say music lives forever And that's why I wrote this verse about you So you can live forever as well [Hook : Doms Gauge & Annie Ness] We live one day at a time These are the days of our lives We never want them to go I look left and then right I take a step in the light Proceed to walk on this road Come and ride with me Let me show you what my eyes have seen This is my story its the life of me And it all began in 1993 Come and ride with me Let me show you what my eyes have seen This is my story its the life of me And it all began in 1993