DJ Bobby Rich - Dear Summer lyrics

[Chorus] Goodbye, Goodbye I hate that word, I wish it were a lie Please know I love you ‘til the day I die I've cried enough for both of us this time These walls have won, can't bring you back to life I hate how I'm supposed to live My life with you outside, I can't stop crying And now you've turned into a ghost You haunt my mind and I can't stop our world from dying Baby goodbye [Verse 1] Dear summer I'm so tired, I haven't slept right in months now These living conditions are miserable And baby, all I ever wanna do is kiss you All I ever wanna do is come home baby These other inmates are driving me crazy It's so loud and when I close my eyes to sleep All I hear is the sound of the screams of these people And some of them are so f**king crazy That I don't really know how they operate daily I don't know if I can call this an existence Something's lurking in my mind I hear whispers I'm in hell, when I'm awake And when I go to sleep I feel demons in my cell And even when I dream there's an evil I can tell That there's something on the fringes The tips of these syringes And when I think about what you must have gone through I pray to God that he keeps you and loves you Coz I can't do either of those from where I am baby It's like I'm dead and I'm a ghost To think that you had to bury your dad I couldn't be there to hold your hand I loved him too baby, I know he's proud watching you now Yeah looking down little lady Remember when they let me go to the hospital And you told me later you were there behind the gla** I swear that I could feel you but they wouldn't let me ask If I could hold you for a second and he was dying in my arms I never told you, your daddy looked at me and smiled I never forget that moment But now it's like I'm losing you another way I feel it rolling off your tongue but I refuse to let you say [Chorus] [Verse 2] Dear summer I haven't heard from you in a while now, is everything O.K.? I got the email you sent a couple months ago I'm glad the music's going well, I'm glad you're on your way I'm glad you found your rhythm and you're back up on your feet You never were the type to be accepting of defeat I sleep, a little easier now you're doing fine It puts my soul to rest, takes a little off my mind Don't worry about me baby, I'm O.K I think back to that day When I walked into the bank and didn't know that I was there And the gun was in my hand, I didn't know how it appeared The lady started screaming so I started screaming too I woke up two days later with 6 thousand in my shoe And how I got the money, I don't really have a clue I thought you left it for me, like something you would do I drove myself to rehab and checked myself in there For the first time in a month that I was seeing crystal clear Remember how many clinics told me I wasn't eligible? ”too broke”, ”live too far away” Those f**king crooks And that judge handed down 10 years like what? Like he was giving away detention And you were in the court with your papers, and your suit Trying to plead the case, baby, like it was everything you know Every fibre of your being, it was you who pulled me through Even though we lost the case, I saw what you would do I saw you give your blood, work your knuckles to the bone Trying to bring me back but I ain't never coming home I'm gone and if I come, I'm coming back a different man You don't want this baby, and now I understand I love you ‘til the day I f**king die But now, baby, it's time to say goodbye [Chorus] [Verse 3] Dear summer I got your letters, I agree with everything you said I'll sign the papers, baby you are free And know that what you do, it's all ok by me And even though thinking about you with another man Makes me go wanna insane like I can't even f**king stand Makes me wanna grab my hair and pull it out my head Then rip open these bars and fly to you again It's my fault that I'm here, it's not on you So go ahead baby, shine like you do Show this planet what it means to a star You supported me in here so I'll support you where you are But please don't come and see me coz it shatters up my soul When you come and I can't touch you then I have to let you go I did it in the past but I can't do it anymore It cuts me up inside and it shakes me to the core When you come it's like I'm me again And that's a dangerous thing, coz I can't be me in here I got shed my humanity I gotta become a part of the system, so I can live in the system So I don't die in the system Baby I'm tired, ain't got no more resistance There ain't no God in here that wants to listen So part of me is dead and I've acknowledged that he's missing So talk to God for me, tell him “Lord I say forgive me” I try to do myself, but I don't think he ever hears me He's muted out by the screams of all these people A layer of sickness, and of darkness, and of evil And even though the devil is breathing in my ear And he wants to keep me cloaked in the servitude of fear I fear no evil, there's none of that inside I feel the goodness in me, so to him I say goodbye [Chorus] Goodbye, Goodbye (9x)