Dive (NJ) - Change lyrics

Well I let myself down And I made myself cry And I let myself go Like I gave up on life I was telling myself I was living a lie That I didn't exist That the world let me die And I took a step back Was it really that bad I forget who I was I forgot who I am How did I get this far How did I get this low If I change will they care This won't work anymore Was anybody listening? Did anybody care? I'll show them that I'm changing Will I let them down? Letting myself down Should I let them get close Should I let my guard down Should I take a step back Keep my feet on the ground Am I running from pain Or the things that I fear I'm surrounded by hate There is nothing good here And I took a step back Was it really that bad I forget who I was I forgot who I am How did I get this far How did I get this low If I change will they care This won't work anymore Was anybody listening? Did anybody care? I'll show them that I'm changing Will I let them down? Letting myself down