Disposable Heroes of Hiphoprisy - Positive lyrics

[Verse 1] Make me, make me sweat, 'till I'm wet, 'till I'm dry But then wiped a tear from my eye Haven't even felt this warm in a long time Even out in the bright sunshine in a lifetime of spring time I fall into your arm with my heart pumpin' on like a bubblin' dub track Like a garlicky hot tongue and lip smack I did some contemplation Before we got down to the consecration Well maybe baby something in you kiss said it was impetuous For me to rethink this If I love you, then I better get tested Make sure we're protected I walk through the park dressed like a question mark Hark! I hear my memory bark In the back of my brain Makin' me insane, like c**aine [Chorus] But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? [Verse 2] It dawned on me, it seemed to me that this is unusual scenery This red light greenery Make me feel kinda dreamery Thinkin' how I used to be Arrive at the clinic And walk through the front door Take a nervous number then I think some more About all the time that I neglected Making sure that I was protected They took my blood with an anonymous number Next two weeks sat waitin' and wonderin' I shoulda done this a long time ago A lot of excuses why I couldn't go I know these things and these things I must know But it's better to know than to not to know [Chorus] Cause how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? [Verse 3] I go home to kick it in my apartment I try to give myself a risk a**essment The wait is what can really annoy ya Every day more paranoia I read about how it gets transmitted Some behavior I must admit it Who I slept with, who they slept with Who they, who they, who they slept with I think about life and immortality What's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V? I have a cry and tell my mother I get on the phone and call my past lovers I never thought about infectin' another All the times that I said "Hmmm? Don't bother." Was it really all that magic? The times I didn't use a prophylactic Would my whole life have to change? Or would my whole life remain the same? Sometimes it makes me wanna shout All these things too hard to think about A day to laugh, a day to cry A day to live and a day to die 'Till I find out, I may wonder But I won't live my life six feet under [Chorus] Cause how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? And how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? And how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?