Dion Crysis - Home/the H lyrics

[Part I: home] [Hook: Lona] I ain't got nowhere to lay my head down, let my hair down It ain't fair no, it ain't fair no I got to find some where to lay my head down, let my hair down I don't care now, i don't care now [Verse 1: Lona] They say ain't nothing like home But home's not a home Find myself alone Feeling unworthy of the throne No one's picking up the phone Life stealing pieces of my souls Go looking for someone to console and they just say I'm reaping I ya sow Like how the hell did yall think I did this to myself I wanna know It's out of my hands Go look for purpose Fall in to sin All I want is someone to understand that trying to put myself together again Step dad been k**ing my confidence for years Along with all the kids Story might be different I guess if I was his or if I was cool Highlight of my day was going to school They don't know what I'm going through [Bridge: Lona] I've got a lot of pain but it probably doesn't show Momma probably help me but she probably doesn't know Why they why they always got to do me wrong I know I let it happen but I still can't let it go I been going through it, I just thought I'd let you know All I know these four walls, but farther I will go Peace, love, and happiness Father I will know Father I will know [Verse 2: Lona] Stepdad hate me Couple of cousins too Sorry granny, momma, auntie It's just the truth There's my reason for not coming through Momma I been holding on just for you My feelings wasn't a factor Deserve academy awards for being the greatest actor When outsiders was asking if I was happy and secure with family But no golden globe for a n***a who got his head on So until then I'm be chilling in San Mo with my n***as Chasing these hoes trynna meet women Toss and turn in my feelings Make plans on how to make a difference Cause f** the past, all I been through f** new friends, cause I been true He ain't sh**, but ain't sh** new [Outro: Lona] Need somewhere to lay Fly away Find a place At night I lay afraid It's too much, this pain Need somewhere to lay I'm going find somewhere to lay My head down It ain't fair no but I don't care now But I don't care now [Part II: the H] Sometimes I wonder if my city will ever glow My city afraid to grow This just might be the realest I ever wrote or illest I ever spoke You can't F with these quotes Underestimated for sure My city doesn't love me They really do not care I was making moves, the H was unaware But the thing is I expect it Rarely was I respected Fake smiles and daps like I could not detect it But I got an objective I don't care if yall objecting Even after things I learned I'm still learning some lessons Yall hating to show love Blocking a couple blessings Playing hide and seek with the message If you could buy attention a lot of yall would be broke It's a shame how they sleep on a n***a cause he woke And they see you down on yourself and your luck in how you walk Got me watching how I talk Got me watching how I talk Young socially awkward n***a But none you could stop the n***a The love I get don't match the love that I got for n***as n***as faking with me now like they wasn't trying to hang with me then Guess that they forgot a n***a I used to get told that I was out the picture Now they screaming and scheming like I'm Willie Beamen I'm trynna give them more than the BS that they feeding Everybody f**ing with me now I was wondering how you don't Black sheep my whole life So I'm bound to be GOAT Can't see the vision Then n***a see the door Let me tell you bout the city sh** is getting real Ain't just thinking about myself My n***a doing 12 f** 12, they k** my brothers Put the cold cases on the shelf All yall preaching is getting wealth, f**ing all the hoes n***as main focus is getting chose When n***as is getting choked This for all you n***as who thinking you on the throne This a warning shot before I make it back home n***as in my city go to parties and don't make it back home Cause the H so full of hate If it's the last thing i do, i swear I'm going to make the change Everybody got some sh** to say But you better watch it when you talking to the Don You playing ball with LeBron On my Harry Potter, all I got to do is wave the wand Talking from a distance, so I can't hear the disses Shots fired, and like Pac I'm here to say you missed it I know you don't want to come face to face with the king I can tell who on the team, know who in the yard Boy we good on this side, gra** always green Know just who you are, I put a face to the lames Homie stay up in your lane We was supposed to be brothers, too bad you n***as was Cain And they ain't f**ing with me in the city So it's f** you when I'm in the city f** the world till I'm empty And I still haven't came And I still haven't came, damn