Dilemma - Pray For Me lyrics

Look, I woke up without a heart beat But I remember we was just in the car deep Was at a light and got approached by a car thief He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys A loud noise without a voice but I'm tryna scream out sh** is not fair I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here Surrounded by all white maybe its just cloudy Escorted by two men who knew everything about me Both of them so strong kept saying hold on Feel like my souls gone naked no clothes on I know this can't be my fate I scream WAIT! As they drop me infront of a gate They left no trace I can see my every breath like a cold day Stood before a man with no face He said to me "Please don't make this any harder" "Who the f** is you?" "My child I'm your father" "I only got one dad!" "Is that a fact to you? He left you when you was young I brought him back to you Youre real close to heaven, few get to step in Now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in?" "Look I'm far from a Christian, not big on religion But ain't done too much wrong my entire time living Never k**ed never tried too tho I been lied to Was once suicidal never read the Bible I always been a care taker tried to nurse people At times it back fired hurt people hurt people Plus I never use your name in vain But you should know everything I'm being asked to explain" "I know you stole from your mothers purse" "You can't count that, that was way back when!" "It's still a sin" "But I was ten!" "You robbed people, stole" "Yeah and YOU made me see jail!" "But I also seen you lay your hands on a female Sold d** to parents none of that was needed Abandoned your child, on every girl you cheated Done wrong to people that only want the best for you Any time you thought you were alone I was next to you" "When it came to baby moms GOD you gave me the worse one!" "But that was your second child Joe, you shouldn't k**ed the first one" "I ain't have a job ain't have a pot to piss in" "Look I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision Held onto resentments even in doing business I lead by example, I teach forgiveness your entry can not be Gur-an-teed Not when you live with anger, envy, greed Pride, sloth, lust even gluttony Everything you shouldn't if you woulda joined my covenant" "Look I'm only human I ain't perfect" "That I understand. When I take you out a jam You don't even think to worship, and when you do You never talk about what you can do for me its what I can do for you? I blessed you with health, family and wealth With all the blessings you received you still always want help" "Yeah there's been times in my life I needed help to make money But why everything I love you manage to take from me? Yet you stand there an question a n***a that tries hard And finds a way when you keep dealing them fu*kED up cards! You make mistakes like me far as I can see I think its a mockery whenever rich n***as win the lottery Gave us Bush twice God I hate to be rude But you let skinny n***as starve give obese n***as food THE NERVE of you telling me I don't deserve to stay here When you gave us d** and guns you put AIDS here! Take a look at you, your actions are cold hearted The harsh sh** is you bring babies in the world retarded I know most my actions put me in a cell But how you mad at me when you put me into hell" "See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample I never give a person anything they can't handle Don't tell me about everything you had to go through There's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you Kept trying with you all you did was hurt me Still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy And so I sat with you on a train I asked you for change You kept calling me names. Prolly didn't notice I was the store clerk, you put the gun to me get money for more work My child I know you have it in you to indeed stop This is not your final calling just a brief stop Hope you heed my words and understand So when I see you back you should be a better man Look at life different the next time we see each other There be no need for talk whenever we meet each other"