Dialekt - Not Today lyrics

Verse 1 I sprayed up their car to send a message around They beat the sh** out me now I'm rockin the crowd When I was 11 I knew I was made for this industry 1986 and the rest it was history I'm obsessed with this imagery that they just don't get 'Never mind' , what a perfect fit See this sh** isn't forever , I'm sick of it , I should quit I only got one 'love' though , it's a shame shes a b**h And I'm not feelin these fans, see these listeners itch For new material, but misunderstand the lyrics Tired to d**h of these round trips When in Rome right I miss my wife, my shotgun and my coke pipe Life of a rolling stone, that don't roll right I love you , I love you, I'll see you in the next life Smells like goodbye, bye, smells like goodbye Chorus I wanted to change the world Just not today I wanted to take control just not today Verse 2 I don't want to here in this room all alone I miss my whole fam n my daughter at home They keepin sayin this one is gonna be a smash I shoulda won it last time , politics as Usual I guess I'm stressed from no sleep Its like my mind's racing , never stopping for a seat But there's too much I keep inside to let be All I wish from inside is they would let me Do it like Frank Sinatra , my way And she don't understand my life, I'm ok I'm just great, this weed I smoke just helps me focus And stop feelin like another Hollywood locust I'm not a red carpet host I'm used to isolation Look at where I'm from , that's my inspiration And this instigation has got me pacin Sick of my friends tellin me this apartments amazing I feel like a surf hit the water with my mates and vibe To the outback sky , right in the sunshine f** it , I'm tired , gotta study these lines I'll hit em in the morning at 5, New York , good night Bridge To say I care would be an understatement The thought its there, just not the motivation It won't hurt, for me , to wait another day Verse 3 They say I'm on d** but I'm only drinking They say I'm f**ed up , but their over thinkin Why you this make up smears, from tears Of misunderstood years, full of fears when nobody cares A young girl , with a snotty nose, hair with no body to it Their full of snobby ness and I'm a looser Abuser to them so music is soothin Therapeutic , almost medicinal So it becomes visceral, shame though, my love life is miserable Too many drunk nights have me feelin invisible Liquor is my pedestal, h**n was only ever temporary , typical Drop the empathy, your pity just makes me sh**ty Dose up the eye shadow and wear this wig , till it look silly I swear to God one day these shots'll k** me But vodka is a must, with no trust for those near me I'm sick of feelin crap, ending up with bloody knee caps And f** your feedback , I don't need that This pino I'mma keep that , and lean back Why you think they tried to make me go to .........