Deviates - Midline lyrics

i need help i cant leave i cant breathe. i see my way out but I'm in too deep to care. emotionless, i feel myself about to break. self-destruction, self corruption, this life i know, this life i hate. with each pa**ing day my outlets slip away. i believe the lies and i dig myself in deeper. i play a daily game of tug a war between what's in my heart and what's on my mind, not weighing circumstances, pa**ing blindly by my chances knowing some day i might die. in the silence of my nightmare noone else can hear me scream, noone else knows what i need, noone else believes, i could die and not care. i need something to set me free. reflections from my past that seem so unreal to me, I'm out of touch i can no longer feel me, my heart is sick and my mind is reeling. don't know myself, don't know why i still don't care . I'm the only one that's paying, and I'm the only one that's playing. the more i struggle the more i lose. i dig myself in deeper and still don't care then the moment comes when you reach for my heart, i know it's to hard to find